It's a Lot like Life.

Hello there.

I'm just another random person on the Internet who is going to try and figure herself out by writing and leaving it lying around for others to read or discard.  Nothing special here.

Except that I'm in my mid 40s, live with a parent, single, never married, and no children.  I'm also a survivor of childhood abuse which left me with, amongst a head full of other things, depression, anxiety, and PTSD.

I spend my days trying to figure things out.  Why I'm single, why was I abused, why I feel alone inspite of all the friends I have.  Some days, I feel like... I must have a special purpose, or I still wouldn't be here, but I just haven't found out what that is yet.  Other days, I think I'm just too chicken shit to pull the trigger and end it all.

Welcome to my unbearable brain.